Wednesday, October 25, 2006

hyperventilation

a while ago, i did something that deeply hurt someone i love, perhaps irreconcilably. i wish that i could go back and erase it, but i can't. i know that my sincere regret and tears have done little if not nothing to ease this person's pain.

we've both done a lot of things that have caused one another pain - i think that's often part of having a relationship and learning how to be in a relationship with someone. but another part is being able to work through problems and at least attempt to salvage what once was if it's worth it. i honestly believe that this is worth it.

i understand that this person is unbelievably angry with me and it's completely warranted. but i refuse to let this beauty that we've created die because of my indiscretion. my feelings for this person are the most real thing i've ever felt.



i never meant to hurt you.
i'm deeply sorry.
i love you.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh laurie. i know you can fix this, i am sure of it.

we are all human beings and we screw up and hurt the people we love the most (don't i know! god bless chris's forgiving heart!).
do not give up. a sincere expression of regret is priceless, and i know that this person you love so much still loves you too or he wouldn't be hurting so badly.

real love doesn't die easily. put up a fight!
love you and thinking of you.
nan

lauriebot said...

thanks, nan... you're such a wonderful friend.